Honestly

I so want to believe this is meant for me

But I am so far from who I am meant to be

Only wanting to life life “honestly”

Can’t want more than that

The sadness finds a way out again

It always does

Like water freezing in a crack in the ground

My unhappiness has been found

What if I was dying

Would you still be lying?

I couldn’t handle a word you’d say

A life of no fear

Authenticity

Freedom

Liberation

Honour

Could he love the real me?

Could I love the real me?

Is it time?

I’m pretty sure it’s running out

Men fail to look after me

Time and time again

Left disappointed

Unashamed

Broken

And yet made to walk

I’m just not ready to talk

Life is cruel

And painful

And yet so beautiful

At the same time

Most people are on the dysfunctional scale

but I can’t make you love me

If only we could be together honestly

No right or wrong

Way to live

But to some people

You will never be right

As long as you know

What you’re doing

Who you’re doing it for

And why

No one can stop you

This is for you